Friday, April 4, 2008

Its just a BLAH day

**Notice - I feel like a whiner, sorry, I know I'm throwing a pity party, just can't help it today***

You know how when you don't feel 100% well and then you look outside and its a dreary day how you suddenly feel a little bit worse. Kind of like you might be able to justify staying at home, in bed, and doing nothing productive the whole day. Hopefully someone out there can understand because that's how I've felt most of the week and it kind of makes me feel like a wimp. I am at work though and I'm making it.

So I have another sinus infection, for those of you who know me you know this is nothing new it seems like I have a new one every week these days, but I think I'm kinda bummed about it this time. I just wish I knew why after around 26 years of being healthy, why the last year and a half I've had so much trouble with my sinuses. Nothing changed that I can think of, they've found nothing that I'm allergic too, but well.........I'm just in a wimp out mode. I DON'T WANT THIS ANYMORE! I don't want to be sick, I don't want to take medicine, I don't want to go to the doctor who sticks a big scope up my nose all the time, and well I want to be well again, have I said that enough, I want to be well!

Now don't get me wrong, I'm so VERY thankful that I have not been diagnosed with something really scary, like cancer, which makes me feel blessed beyond belief, but I'm still just having one of those days when I need to vent, or whine, or just be a baby.

So......if you wanna say a prayer for me that would be great - I know that I'm going thru this time for a reason and that the reason is hard to see until you are completely through, or at least that is how it usually goes. I'm thankful that someday down the road I will be able to understand and help someone else who is going through a difficult time too........I just feel like I've learned enough to help already (sorry Lord, I know You know best). So, I'm appreciating prayers for patience and sorry again for whining.

PS: My doctor did say this week that he thought I might outgrow this at some point (which sounds kinda funny since I am 27 years old) but that was exciting and definitely something to look forward to!

PPS - This may not be a picture of me.......but it sure shows how I feel today


Jenelle said...

Oh I'm sorry Rachel. I wish I could find a way to get all of the gunk out of your nose. As I don't have a magic sinus infection cure, all I can do is pray for you. I love you bunches!

I LOVE the picture.

Kangamoo said...

I hope you are feeling beter soon. Here are my thoughts on the matter.... not that I am an expert, but I am definitely older than you.

First... what happened a year and a half ago or maybe a little longer? You had a baby! This changes things in ways that no one can understand and makes no sense at all.

Second..... treat yourself for seasonal allergies. I never got allergies, so when my kids started getting them I never thought about it. Once I realized what was going on, I also started talking to friends... one of whom would always get sinus infections. She said she does the same thing I do for my kids now.... take a once a day seasonal allergy medication, just to keep the sinuses clear. We use Allerclear (OTC) from Costcol, but there are many others out there you can try.

Your day sounds similar to the one my brother had on Friday and he ended his blog the same way you ended yours.... with a picture of an absolutely adorable child.

In the meantime I will be praying for you.

Barb said...

Good morning, Rachel,

I couldn't find an email link for you, so I'm using your comments to let you know you won one of the six Steven Curtis Chapman CD's I'm giving away.

I'll need you to send me your mailing address so I can forward it to the music company - they'll ship the CD directly to you.


Stephanie said...

Hey Rachel,
Thanks for jumping over to my blog. I enjoyed reading yours-you sound like tons of fun and it is neat that you know Jenelle in real life.

About your sinus problems, I wanted to suggest something simple that has helped me. I have had allergy problems for a long time, but I have found in the last year that honey has helped me. It needs to be locally grown honey because it has the pollen grains for your locale. This helps your body recognize that pollen and not fight it! Cheap and easy, plus it makes me sleep like a baby when I take it at night. Good luck!